Week 7+

Oh man. This Sunday is week 8, unless I haven’t been keep track well.

My coworkers are saying I’m looking better. I feel like my stomach is still out a lot. Like a solid dad bod. My head and face still feel huge. Hrm.

The diet itself is manageable. I do still get stupid hungry but when I get to 11:30 or past it, the hunger seems to dissipate.

Been going twice to BJJ a week solid. Three if I feel super energetic or just wanna leave the house. Time for gossip.

So my friend wanted to confide in me about what’s been going on in her life from career, family, to baby daddy drama. I decided to take her to redondo beach because she has never been there. We talked for two hours before I drove her back home.


The ride back was cool. She was asking me what type of girls I liked. Duh. She knows. Then I asked if anyone from the church cell group was single. She said yeah and they’re cute!



… omg. That’s so sad. If you asked me to hook you up I’d be glad to. I’d think no guy was good enough for you but if that’s what you want then I’d hook it up.

No …

Why!? Am I that big of a piece of shit? I have too much baggage?

eh… uh no… they’re young!

So I find it odd that girls will date guys 5-10 years older than them but when a guy is interested in those girls… that same crowd will say that the dude is too old.

… am I the only one finding that shit odd??


Week 5+

I need to check how long it’s been but I’ve been solid on my diet.

I haven’t lost as nearly much weight as I’d like to have but so far so good.

I’m getting compliments at work and at church for my weight loss. They all pint the biggest loss they noticed was my belly.


A friend of mine told me I need to lose weight for me and not my imaginary future wifey.

Ah! I had dinner right before my time cut off today. First time I’ve had dinner like this in a long time. We had KBBQ and I got to eat so much meat.

My friends (they’re a married couple) told me I’m doing great with my diet. They’ve also encouraged me to buy a house. Sorry. Not happening. Not on my current salary and definitely not in LA

They did tell me they find it hard to believe I’m not, or haven’t been dating anyone since November of last year. I explained how genuinely, personality can only get you so far. If she’s not physically attracted to you, it’s not going to happen.

I felt definitely that my personality isn’t that great anyways. They keep saying how funny I am. So what? I find so many other people much funnier.

Here’s what I think and it’s what I’ve told them. I’m 36 now. I’ve been and will continue taking care of my mother. I hear women say all the time that they won’t date guys who treat their moms like shit. What they fail to mention is that they won’t date guys that take care of their mothers.

I can’t and won’t date a woman who sees my mother as a thorn in the way of her life. That’s toxic and exactly how my ex saw my mom. Not happening.

I will love and respect her family but no modern day woman will want a guy with my “baggage”

All in all… I know I’m “leftover”. I’d rather them stop telling me how good I am or lucky anyone would be to have me. It makes me feel like im dying and they’re trying to make it like my wish might come true.

I’ll just continue to lose weight, get better at BJJ, never stop doing intermediate fasting, and most importantly, be the best father I can be for my booger pie.

This picture is already over a month old now.


Week four +

I’ve been getting a few compliments here and there about my weight loss.

Notably, my belly.

People are telling me just how much of it has gone away.

Now I get that the reason why most diets don’t work is because people can’t stick to them.

Find what works for you.

I weighed in at 184 this morning. I was stoked. Literally, haven’t change what I eat but how often I get to eat it.

Also only doing BJJ 2-3 times a week.

I’m happy.


Regretting decision

I’ve heard many say that regretting something isn’t healthy for you.

Like, we live in “what if” moments because of that word.

Well. Today, I’ve learned the hard way about what bicycles with no gears does to your legs.

Yep. I regret that I didn’t ride my fitness bike that has 18 gears and better tires.

I regret thinking it would take 18 minutes to bike 3 miles in LA traffic but it turned it to be 31.

I regret forgetting how horrible sidewalks are in the city of LA and how often my pedals would scrape the lifted sidewalk pieces from the trees the city planted many years ago.

I also regret breathing super heavy in front of that girl that was walking faster than I was pedaling. Now that I think about it, she was probably power walking away from me. What a creep.

… tomorrow, I’m riding the fitness bike.

Small changes but fuck me I’m sweating so much at work right now lol

Oh. I regret not wearing deodorant…


3 more weeks to go

It’s officially 3 weeks of intermittent fasting. I’ve already lost nearly three inches on my waist. It was more than all the workouts and zumba combined.

I know diet was the answer but I really couldn’t give up my shitty eating habits. Instead, I chose to give up eating shitty to one out of the three meals.

Out of the 24 you’re, I’m fasting 18 of it. Why 18? I tried 16 and found I can really still eat shitty during those times. 18 limits it. A lot.

I found that already, I have more stamina during BJJ classes and I’m able to do more rounds than before. I also realized I don’t get winded as much doing simple things.

It takes 6 weeks for some of the effects to be noticeable but I’m already noticing a big change. So I do have three move weeks to go to see some more changes.

Why the sudden want to change my lifestyle?

Hrmm. I think for me, I’ve realized that I need more than just being able to joke around to court a woman. “If you’re poor, ugly, and short, at least be slim” is what this girl said in a meet-up. I’m not sure if it was directed at me but I took it that way since everyone else was nearly 6 foot tall.

My friend suggested me to do this fasting a couple years ago. My blood pressure wasn’t under control at that time. But now it seems like something I can do.

I’ve already resisted all foods and snacks outside of my window already. I’m doing pretty well.

Uhm… that’s it for now. Thanks for stopping by.


Baby don’t hurt me

Don’t hurt me, no more~~~

I just realized how behind the times I am. I don’t ever photoshop my pictures to post on blogs. I’m not very articulate with the ideas I’m trying to spit out. So I can understand when I leave people confused bwahahahahaha

My last ex was pretty fine. Probably one of the hottest girls I’ve ever dated. Selfishness seems to go hand in hand with looks. FOB from Korea.

The one before her was very young. 25 turned 26. Probably the youngest adult I’ve dated in my thirties. She was a PK (Pastor’s Kid) but did very unholy things with me. Indonesian Chinese. Very nice… squatting girl.

And right before her, probably the most successful girl I’ve dated. Her own real estate business, multiple properties, slamming body, and very nice. Mainland Chinese.

After reading my friend Connie’s blog, I know where she’s coming from. Many of Us guys are very ungrateful to the women in our lives. I don’t know what it is but I was the one to always tell my friends bro, you’re lucky to have her. For the past few years, my friends have been saying it to me.

I used to blame the women completely but now I see it’s hard to date a guy like me. I’m far from perfect. I have issues of my own. Nowhere near perfection.

Looks? Meh.

Brains? Lulz

Spirituality? Average

An awesome son? Okay at best

Father? Of the year! (Then I saw Chloe Kim’s dad on the Olympics) thanks, dick.

Personality? Fat people are jolly.

All in all, I could’ve been better. Better to all the women involved with me. No excuses. I love games and martial arts. I also love women. A lot.

I’m faithful as fuck when with a woman. I also have unrealistic expectations.

Sexually, only the mainland Chinese kept up. Somewhat. I recall one of our hotel ventures, the next doors (both of them) called a complaint because we were keeping them up all night. Literally. I was unhappy because she really didn’t like being on top. Made me wonder why someone this hot could be so lazy in bed.

The youngest one, she was very sheltered so she wanted to do crazy things with me. She got mad because we wouldn’t fuck in my parking lot. First off, it’s not covered. Second, I’m at an age where I know as fun as that might sound, it’s not worth the sexual charges that come with the police being called. Second, she couldn’t have sex at her place so the only choice left was my pad or hotels, but she didn’t like either. She’d rather have sex in public places like parks and parking lots. Lord help her.

And finally the fob, lazy in bed, super lazy. A dead fish would give me more action than she did. But also, she felt it was a man’s duty to pay for everything.

It seems my issues mostly revolve around physical aspects of the relationship. Am I a great listener? I don’t know.

Physically? I make sure the woman gets hers before I get mine.

Emotionally? Does it tie in with physical needs? I think if she’s fed and happy sexually, it should make her emotionally happy? Maybe impress her with carrying more groceries at once so we can have less trips? Win more dolls at carnivals? Show her I can drink two bottles of soju? Give her massages without expecting hanky Panky? Do small chores around the house without being asked to? Short local trips with just her and me? Remember the small things she likes?

Even if I did all of the above and more, I’d feel like she’s not emotionally happy. I try to see what some of my “happy” friends do that I’m not doing. Well, they’re well off so global trips can’t be compared. They also spend a lot of money at casinos.

I don’t know.

What advice do you ladies have for me?

Bros? Chime in, please?

Don’t hurt me lol


35 dollars

I went to traffic court yesterday and lost.

The judge deemed my fine was 35 bux.

Eh. Cool, I guess.

35 bux = 264 with all the court fees.

Another 64 dollars to sign up for traffic school.

328 for a 35 dollar fee. Revenue generating at its finest.